i can’t even appreciate the beauty of the sunrise after staying up all night because it’s just like. fuck. there it is. there’s the sun. i fucked up. why am i laughing. nothing is funny. the sun is there and it’s harshly reprimanding me for being awake all night. “this is the life you’ve chosen for yourself fucker” it says. i’m not laughing. i’m crying. there’s the fucking sun
so we didn’t talk all day, and when we meet up, you say I’m irritating you. you make me feel so loved.
I hate going more than a half hour without talking to you, but it doesn’t bother you to go hours without talking to me. I don’t know what hurts more, the fact that you can go without talking to me, or the fact that you can’t even be bothered to remember that I exist?
It breaks my heart to hear you say “sorry babe, I just haven’t checked my phone.”
okay, that means that you haven’t thought about me. I purposely make an effort to check my phone, just to see if you responded. 7/10 times, you don’t.
It makes me feel unwanted by you. I’m aware that sometimes we don’t have a choice but not to talk, due to work and other commitments. but when we’re both sitting at home, you can’t be bothered to stop playing a video game for 10 seconds to check your phone.
it always amazes me how you can remember to text all your other fucking friends when we’re spending time together, but you can’t be bothered to answer me, whether you’re with your friends or home alone. that makes me feel like total crap.
One day, I really won’t care if we go hours or days without speaking. but I know when that day comes, you’ll realize what you had and it’ll hurt. it’ll really hurt that someone wanted to speak to you constantly and enjoyed your constant presence, and you’re going to lose that.
at work last week i was ringing up this guys order and when he signed i was trying to read his signature and i was like “is your last name Duck?” and he got really nervous and he was like “oh nobodys ever uhh noticed before…. i signed it as donald duck i always sign as donald duck im sorry”